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Hey, it’s Liz, and as promised, I’m here, on Thursday, with some updates about my life.
As someone who doesn’t leave the house very often, I lead an uncomfortably eventful life – not just online, but in the real world too. Despite being rather asocial, I always try to not let down all my friends as far as going out and doing stuff, which always leaves me feeling like I’ve been hit by a truck, emotionally. With family, I can’t really turn down spending time with them, going to dinners and baby showers, and while I love them, I have a really big family, which can also be exhausting. There are other parts of my life that involve draining relationships that I’m not yet in a position to get rid of, and thus, I have to endure the occasional phone call, and being ignored if I say something that they would disagree with.
The point being, at the end of these kinds of days, I just want to scroll through Instagram, re-watch my favorite YouTube videos, and then sleep. Usually, this isn’t so frequent that I can’t push through, but as spring turns to summer, school ends, and the warm weather comes, people for some reason just want to do a lot of things. This results in almost every day feeling like this.
I’ve found some ways to get around it. For example, writing blog posts and recording videos in advance so that I can have more time to chill on the days they’re due to be up. I write chapters in bulk so that if I’m ever uninspired, I’ll most likely have something to post on Wednesdays and Fridays. But when it’s always like this, there’s never time to relax. Sure, maybe take a Saturday for some blog posts, but there’s still a million things I have to do, which can be really stressful.
I don’t want my accounts to have to suffer because I’m busy, though. As small as my audience is on any platform, they (you) are my favorite people, because they’re who I’m sharing what I find important about life with. From people congratulating me on my soon-to-be baby girl cousin on Instagram because they saw it on my story to nice comments on my videos to every like that anything I post gets, that’s a little glimmer of hope. This is what I want to do with my life.
In less than a year, now, this will be my job. But I’m still working at it, working at how I’ll do it consistently. So for now, all I can do is my best, and apologize when it falls through.
Now, if you’ve gotten here, and you’re like, “Um, that’s great Liz, don’t really care,” then I’ll make a point that applies to everyone, in some way. Plans fall through, to-do lists aren’t always finished, and goals don’t get achieved instantly. But if you love what you do, be patient with yourself and hope others will be patient with you too, because eventually, you’ll figure it out.
See you on Sunday!
~Liz